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----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- broken butterflies And they say every man What do you do?I am actually speechless for once.And everyone notices it.I cant stand it.Nine months?And I was just a fuck?I feel sick.I have been through way to much and this time?This time like all the SO CALLED others?It was SOPPOUSE to be different.Why me?Why me is all I ask.And there is no reason ....no explanation.You know how I felt about this mother fucker?I let him have me.I let him in on ALOT.Not knowing that all I was was just a FUCK.Once again...thats all I am good for.I had such a good time with him.I laughed,I had good sex,I loved the smile,I loved the comfort,I loved THINKING that there was something there.I fucking hurt.I hate this.And I have been here before,and maybe I sometimes think that I liked feeling this but I really didnt.When the fuck am I going to be good enough?When the fuck am I going to get what I deserve?Cause I will tell ya something...I always think that I am having a good time,that what I have is what I deserve,but it never turns out that way.It always turns out FUCKED up. 5:04 a.m. - 2006-02-04 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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