----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Just Say No Remember the bar I USETO go to?The one where I stopped hanging out in because I would go home crying?Yea...well I started hanging out there again.And so far...so good.I wont allow Rodney to make me cry anymore.He is a typical cokehead.They all are.I have said hello to him now each time I see him,but wont go very far in converstaion with him.Its not worth it.Anyways,since i have been hanging out in my old place,I have noticed all the problems with the stupid coke.And I understand why people think I do it.Over the weekend I sat in the back of the bar and watched all the cokeheads.I watched their one leg go up and down a mile a minute.I watched them talk non-stop.I watched them and what they do...is what I do.But i dont need to shove shit up my nose to have a conversation or to not be able to sit still.The Vernage came up there on Saturday,called my friends phone and told him to tell me that he was on his way.The Vernage had just had his friends funeral that morning and was bar hopping and most likely shoving shit up his nose.And his friend?The one that past away?Yea...half the folks think it was from the booger sugar,half say it wasent.And the half that says it wasent?They all"party",but as I was told the night before...dont we all like to "party"? I dont understand.I dont understand why people would want to even get caught up in certain things.What ever happened to the hippie ways?When all the people you once knew were okay with lighting up a plant?When you could sit and laugh?When you didnt haveto worry about someone taking something the wrong way and poucing on you?The Vernage has no clue what I know.He has no clue how many people I know that knows him that tells me things not knowing that I am with him.It gets better each day.Although parts of the Vernage reminds me of my sweet love,there are so many parts that kill certain parts of me.The drug part.I laid in bed one night next to him.As he laid there sleeping,I laid with my eyes wide open searching for unfound things in the darkness.And then he started.Wheezing,gurgling...whatever. Theres a ship One night,one day I want to be able to tell the Vernage excatley what goes on in my head about him.About everything. 7:59 a.m. - 2005-10-10 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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