----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- he spins inside my soul I look up the word "trust"in the great and wonderful dictionary.And it tells me It feels so good I am going to look back at the last two years that I have spent alone.How I went from bad to worse.From worse to pathetic,from pathetic to being just okay.From being just okay to not even really knowing or maybe not even caring anymore.I covered up alot of my thoughts,alot of my feelings by hiding behind people,by hiding behind a bottle,by hiding behind a secret stash.And now?Now that I dont really hide to much anymore?It dosent feel to good.It dosent feel good to come out of a shell and try to change things when I feel I have no reason to.And sure,I know that i dont need a "someone"to give me a reason to try to change.But when you think that you might just have a "someone"to help you along the way,or when you think that things might get better in the loving part of yourself,it seems a little bit easier,until you realize that in the end,it probably wasent worth any of the emotions you went through. Slip inside my soul The weather is changing.And with the weather I change as well.It reminds me of HIM.I close my eyes and breathe in and I can feel HIM.I imagine that he is next to me,touching me so softly,I can feel his warm breath against my cool neck,I can feel soft lips,soft hands,soft breathing.I can feel HIM looking at me,with his bright blue eyes, 8:02 a.m. - 2005-10-11 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
||||||