----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- could it be the same Its been forever.And I can feel it in my fingers as I type away.It feels good to feel forever.It feels good to know that there are 2 types of forevers.One where you want.The other where you need.And I have both of them right now. **Its Eternal** ++Good Bye Mr.Blue++ I find myself in this rage.This stuff that is just built up in me.This stuff that I need to get out,that I need to say,that I just need to do something with.I find myself wanting to do something about it.I dont want to go back to the same old thing.The same damn me I always go back to.I stopped smoking,I even stopped popping pills.For a minute.Same old thing.Same old me.It never changes.It never stops,and I dont understand why I always think that it will. Its not fair.To do what I am doing to others.What I am feeling.People dont deserve what I put them through.And I know this,yet I continue to do it.To start to breathe,to start to live.And then I shut down.And I stop breathing,I stop living.I stop being"okay".I stop being anything.And its not fair to make people feel as though I am"okay",because when I cant be "okay",they see me differently because thats how I made them see me as.This"okay"person.
8:44 p.m. - 2005-03-08 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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