----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Happy fucking stupid birthday **Im Happy Today** I got a job today...kindof 2 jobs,drank for free at Joeys,came home to ARGUE with Josh,like usual.I told him not to come over,he told me all I wanted is to be friends and that I wouldnt get that. WHERE ARE YOU KYLE??????
And I think I wil call my sister and say thank you for the necklace but "fuck you"for sending me that damn picture....just what I needed to see on my god damn birthday.I miss him today.I cried myself to sleep on Sunday night cause I wanted him with me.It dosent get any easier,it dosent get better,it just gets more"put away".You learn not to show things to people anymore.You learn not to tell people things anymore.You make it go away in the real world,you let it come oput in your world.I think that people tend to think that when you lose someone things will be okay in time,but they never are okay,those that have lost have learned to deal with it other then crying to others,the hide it.I hide it behind my stupid big ass smile.Am I really happy? No...I havent been in a long time 2:35 p.m. - 2004-09-29 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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