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----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Escaping it
**There are no simple answers** **There are no simple questions** Its funny how you can be "fine"for the longest period of time,and then all of a sudden,the "fine"goes away and along comes something else,something you dont want.Something you cant hide,something you cant even escape...unless you pretend to die.So you slowly pretend to die,just kindof fade away,kindof leave everyones thoughts,kindof get forgotten about,and your "fine"with that because you are pretending to die.And you like it.You like being alone,you like how your mind thinks,you like thinking about how much better you can pretend to die,and so thats what you do.You become a pretender,and you simply just go away after a while.And you stop pretending because now no one really even remembers that they once knew you,they just know of you,they just know that you were once "fine" and thats all that matters to them,that you were "fine"once.Only...to you...thats why you pretended so hard to die,and you pretended so hard that you belived that you were dead because that right now to you...is fine.
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