----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- so cool I shouldnt have I shouldnt have said that I hated him.
I thought about razors tonight.I thought about how when i was younger,I would take a knife or a razor and carve things into myself,it was "cool"to carve a cross somewhere.It was "cool"to carve anything at all into your flesh.I noticed that I can still see Dans name,and how I faintly see some of the lines I carved.As I thought about this,I looked at my razor,brushed my finger up against the blade ever so lightly.Thought about why I ever did that crap.Why I ever even started it,and why it was so cool.Its not so"cool"now.Its not "cool"to tell someone about it,to say"look what i did last night...isnt it "cool"?Its not so "cool"to show up with bandages on your wrists,cause you 'slipped',its not very happy anymore,its not very happy to be "cool"anymore.Its not happy at all to want to do these things. 6:57 p.m. - 2004-11-09 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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